My own story own, story

蓝蓝

reality
VS

dream

We come to this world with dreams, When we were infants ,everyone must have t
hat dream that we can speak language which can be used to ask what we like,whic
h should be the first dream of us .

When we could speak,we have another dream:Hoping to walk by ourselves gradually
,once this dream have came true .A series of dreams stuck in our mind -- runnin
g and playing,etc ,at that time even we did not know what is dream clearly.Then
Hoping to grow into adults like our fathers and mothers.

On the way to pursue our dreams,something unexpected may happen at any time to
hinder us. At the age of 8 or about ,my farther did not work for he was disable
d,from then on I lived with my grandparents for a long time ,during that time my
dream was to get the school reward to get money from them becuse they once said
to me if I was the top of my class ,they would give me money for praise ,it was
so childlike ,perhaps related with my age .

I became a middle school student when I was 12 years old ,soon I heard of gra
ndfathe* **lled serious sickness called cancer,I was very sad and I did not have
high spirit ,I did not study hard than I did before When I approached the grad
e two in the middle school, after three months.My grandfather died because of t
he annoying cancer abruptly.My family was full of sadness espicially me I often
cried without being seen .I was very bitter.But what can I do for that,just crie
d.I was 13 that year.I lost the greatest kindest relative.I did not know why the
god was unfair to me.

I was very depressible after my grandfather’s death.The truth upseted my fami
ly.Nobody remembered to comfort me,I just cried and cried slinkingly in the nigh
t.I nearly made myself crazy.At last,I decided to give up my dream, completely.
so it could minish my family’s fee.So I didn’t review hard.I known if I would
not have got the better result,I would get more and more disappointment.so I di
d not study hard from then on,I waste time .Finally I failed in my exams again a
nd again .That was my result what I got I let my teachers and family down.Althou
gh they did blame me，I did not feel said.

I remembered once I went out the school gate without my teacher's permitting
,I known I have grown up.I must attended to work for myself. But my mother cried
a lot when she knew what I did.she tried her best to persuade me ,I did not li
sten to her at all ,I think I was mador crazy .a lot of people persuaded me inc
luding my two middle school teachers,they all said I was too young to do everyth
ing.so I went to another school.now I was very regretful and grateful .The bigge
st pressure on me was that my elder brother entried Xi'dian university that year
,I did not defeat in front of him.Another dream shaped in my mind.

When I went to grade 3,I resumed myself to study even harder to access to the
best high school in my county.but my father did after 2003 spring festival ,he
has been lying on the beg for 8 because of disable ,maybe it was a extrication (
解脱) to him,but to me it was a disaster.that time I did not cry,I did not know
why. suddenly I felt lonely and bitter.But I have no choice,only changed my atti
tude to study harder and harder.At last I succeed .I entried the key school of S
haan Xi province.

At first,a ctually I had a lot of difficulities in my study,because my study b
ase was much worse than others’.I was always under a lot of pressure on my stud
y.When I failed in the exams,I had a doubt about myself:Did you still believe yo
ur ability?were you sure you can make it?I really didn’t know the result.I neal
y gave up for several times.But I wouldn’t be the craven.I said to myself:If yo
u try your best,you must be successful.This belief made me face the reality stro
ngly.

During the studay time at high school, I wanted to be a college student very
much ,or why I went to high school.I started to struggle for the dream day and
night.I studied harder and harder in the whole high school.I was pround of my ac
hievement,and my teachers had a lot of confidence in me.I was sure that I could
achieve my goal in the future.My dream made me struggle diligently.I think the m
ost significat thing was that I made many good friends we spend lots of time p
alying and studying.Several girls around me gave me much care and often forced m
e to call them"jiejie" because I was little younger than them,I often told my ha
ppy childhool to them.On girl who was my deskmate had good friendship .When she
left for another classroom,I felt sorrow for sever days and writed the sola diar
y about her leaving,reading one kind of missing（想思） , one kind of missing （
思念） ,one emothion that can not be expressed by language our friendshio was no
t love but exceeding love.The god was cring for her leaving,the tears drop fro
m several ten thousand ten feet upper hitting the ground stongly , as if ventle
the rage of him.(sorry,I can not express this sentence in my words.I tell you t
he Chiese meaning: ，一种乡思，一种思念，一种无法用语言表达的感情，不是爱，却胜似
爱。上天也为她的离去而落泪，泪水从几万丈的高空狠狠的打在地上，好像在发泄心中的愤
懑）

How time flies!I was a freshman now ,although I did not go to a school of my
heart,and was not popular than my brother's, I can feel grief for several days,e
ven lose my temper to my family,I was frequently depressed and backslide sometim
es,even in the least spirit.But Now those feelings dispeared and instead of it
was a new dream to be a postgraduate student, I could diligently strive for the
dream . I can give up affection that some students think as the most romantic
matter I believe myesef.

The idea is a power, it unceasingly gives the person strength.The idea is a na
vigation aid, indicates the direction to the person.I believe I will not be lon
ely during university, because I have my idea.

I want to say that life is new idea replaces the old ideal process actually ,p
lease believe me.Certainly, dream sometimes can have the conflict with the real
ity,such as me,please remember that we should face the problems,rightly,becaus
e that is the real life.

On the way of coming true our dream or idea , the setback will happen at any ph
ase, do not have to be discouraged, earnest treatment. Overcoming difficulties
untill we succeed ,discovering that, in your front there are lots of fresh flowe
rs waiting for us.I believed "making each day count" is the most important and
the biggest dream for myselfe .

Forget all the sad past,face the reality,and make my dreams come true are my l
ifelong dreams.


pessimism
VS

optimism